Just want you to understand..

some stuff are hard to tell you
i wish you would see it by yourself.. But i don't thinkyou do.
You fucked up it all.. you need to clean up the mess.
i can't fix my broken heart all by myself.. I need you to do it, and show me that i can trust you and you can be mine. because deep innside me, i still love you. I love you more than anything else in the world, because you are my world. and i really don't want my world to fall apart..

So please fix what you've distroyed. I need you to do it. Because i can't live without you <3

Suddenly i really don't know what to do..

Yes, i still like you. You are soo much more than a normal friend for me, no matter what. I still love it when you hold around me and i love being with you.
But ...
I see there is really something missing.. I don't know what it is.. I don't know if you see it.. But i defintly see it. To be honest I don't think u see it. And that makes it even harder for me to find out what i want. I love you.. But.. There is someone else i like to. And now, i really don't know what to do. I don't wanna loose you.. But do i wanna keep you?

I feel so alone.. Why

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I know i'm not alone.

I know my boyfriend love me.

I know i got supporting friends.

I know there is people who love me.

But still...

I feel alone.
I feel my boyfriend start to get tired of me.

I feel my friends don't support me.
I feel there isn't people who love me.

How is it possible?

What can i do with it?

I want to block myself out from everyone and everything.
Mabye that's the best ... ?

It's some words about how i feel

Every time I’m with you, you make me feel so good. I don’t know how you do it. But I know I love it. When I’m with you I feel so safe. I feel I don’t need anything or anyone else in the world. You’re all I want, you’re all I need. You make me feel happy and make me want to laugh, no matter what.

You always listen when I got something I need to say. You always support me when I need it. When I’m down, you always got a shoulder I can cry on. You tell me cute things about me. Things I’ve never before realized. Things I didn’t know people would see.

And what’s the point with this?
Well… I just wanted you to understand how much I appreciate what you do to me. And how much I love you. I know I can always count on you if it is something, and I know I never tell you, but I will do just the same for you, that you do to me. That’s what I call real love. And I hope you feel the same.

Take a hint, I want cute words back ..

I love gettin cute text from my boyfriend on my phone. Just so bad he almost never send thoose anymore :'( I try taking the iniative and send him some cute text, but he never send it back. He used to do it, all the time and I love it. Thoose cute little text I used to get everyday made me so happy. It made me feel good. I felt someone wanted me to be happy and wanted me to feel good. I loved that he did it.
Now when he never does it anymore, i really feel something is missing. I try to give him hints so he maybe will understand that I want it. I update my status on facebook with small cute things to him and tagg his name in it. I write on his wall on facebook. Just write little sentences that maybe make him smile when he read it. Actually, he have never writed something cute in the same way as I do on facebook.. He only did it on text. And sometimes face to face, but that’s not the same.

Of course I love that he say cute stuff to me when I’m with him. I love that just as much as I love it when someone send it to me on a text. But there is something different with it. When I’m alone and miss him, one of the best things I can get a text from him where he say some cute words to me. Damn I wish he would start doing it.

The best thing would be if he did it without me saying I wanted it, but it doesn’t seem like he would do that. I don’t think he understand that’s what I want.
So my question then is, how can I get him do it without saying “hey you, I want you to text me cute words and stuff like that sometimes”. I just feel that would be so wrong of me…

Why can’t he just take a hint when I try to give him one?